Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Having an I hate my life day...
Mainly because the two year anniversary of my graduation is coming up and I feel like I haven't accomplished anything since. I have nothing to show for those 2 years and it's extremely frustrating. I miss school... I miss books... I miss intelligent conversation... I miss debating... I feel like all I do is eat, sleep and work with no time to do anything interesting in between. Then I wake up the next day and do it all over again. Working full time is still taking some time to adjust. My life is certainly not where I thought it would be right now. I'm just going to have to bust my ass this summer to pay these few bills off and start '09 on a fresh note. I hope and pray that I do....
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Hey, I know how you feel. Its been a few months from since I graduated college, but while I was in college, I did absolutely nothing. All the things I planned to do while in college I didn't (joining clubs, internships, traveling, partying, studying abroad, meeting new people, etc). And looking back on it, I feel like I've wasted 5 years of my college life. All I did was went to class and went home. I don't have anything to show for my college years. I am at a job I don't really care for (you don't even need a degree for this position-which really bugs me). It pays the bills and I guess I'm sorta grateful because they hired me eventhough I don't have much solid working experience. I have friends (but I don't keep in contact with them like i should but they're all back in my home state) and I'm in a new state where I know no one but my bf. I feel like it too late to do some of the things I should have done while in school. I'm trying to, but its harder when you have a full-time job, and other responsibilities like bills and such b/c after work, I just want to go home and sleep. I always fantasized having the after-work social life, but I'm learning its easier said than done and it seems to get harder as you get older to really make new friends. So, I too tend to have many "I hate my life" days. But I am learning it could always be worse, or it could always be better. This summer I am definitely going to try my hardest to meet new people whether its by volunteer, or joinging one of those meetup.com groups, because I really don't want to waste the rest of my 20's. I am still going to try and find a way to study abroad (whether its for graduate school or just try to work abroad). Like I know I wasted many years not doing crap, but I still have a little faith thats its never too late to change my non-existent social life. I just wanted to let you know I know how you feel and you're not alone.
ChasingADream - Thanks for your response. I don't feel so alone anymore. It's like you read my mind. I would agree that it is harder to meet people once you're older. :(
Also, I also agree with you when you said your life is certainly not where you thought it would be. I feel the exact same way! I never thought I would be working in the position I'm in, living in this new city (which is kinda wack btw) and just not being really where I want to be in life. It is kinda depressing though...I know it could be worst, but I know it could have been so much better too.
No problem! Its like you read my mind when I read your post and I just had to respond and let you know you're not alone and I know how you feel, esp when sometimes it seems like everyone else is enjoying their lives (eventhough thats not necessarily true)
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