I swear that man knows me like the back of his hand. LOL

Snow Day

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE finally having my computer back running the right way. It's like buying a new one. Just thought I'd share. I did absolutely nothing I was supposed to do to today. We're going to hope for some progress tommorrow. Shoot I'm secretly hoping for another snow day but I seriously doubt it'll happen...

ETA: I've decided to start keeping track of my natural hair progress over here as well in addition to my fotki so be on the lookout for those posts in the near future.

Random...

I had the strangest dream this morning. I had a boat (in my driveway for some reason) and it got repossessed. What the hell was that about? I have no clue.

Mr. and Mrs. Obama

I came across this picture of the two of them on the way to one of the balls... How cute is that?

Weekend Notes...

SO and I spent most of the day and evening together yesterday and today. Strangely I think we're closer now that we were before. We texted each other at the same exact time today. That was pretty creepy. I got to see him work out in the gym yesterday and it was fun watching. Based on his Coach's comment upon meeting me, clearly SO has been chatting me up. Good things I hope. I wonder when he's going to fight in his next match. I'm praying that '09 will be a prosperous year for the both of us. We're on the right path to accomplishing our goals for this year, we just have to be sure to follow through. I'm excited to see what '09 will bring.

My President is Black...

It's hard for me to put into words how I feel about Barack Obama being the President. I'll just sum it up by saying that I'm proud. I thoroughly enjoyed watching the Inauguaration and the balls on television. I think this was the first time I actually sat down and watched one. Probably was the first time I actually followed an election too. I've never felt connected to a candidate before. Change is finally here. It'll be interesting to see the impact he has on this country as it's leader.

Brighter Days...

I had an interesting conversation with an acquaintance last night and I have to admit it caused me to reevaluate my social life (among other things). I had never really put any thought into why my social life had dwindled the past few years and quite honestly I didn't really care. I had been too busy trying to make moves and get money. So to that person - thanks for delivering that message. You've helped to change my outlook. I've decided to make an conscious effort to be more inviting and let people into my world. I'm up for making some new friends. Let's see where this takes me...

ETA: Oh yeah, me and the boo made up. Glad that blew over. :)

Damn I hate rough patches!!

Long story short - I fucked up. ROYALLY. And I don't even know if it was worth it. SO and I are being cordial via text message but we haven't had a conversation since we last saw each other on Sunday. Did I unconsciously sabotage my relationship? I keep going back and forth in my mind wondering if I've made a huge mistake. I wonder if I wouldn't have had anything to worry about had I not satisfied my curiosity. It's been four whole days and I still don't know the answer to those questions. I admit that I was wrong but I had my reasons. I even apologized (which says a lot because I DO NOT apologize) because I knew how he felt and didn't want him to be upset with me. Of course that didn't work. I don't even know if I should feel bad about it on the inside. I don't feel remorseful. Is that bad? I know he's feeling some kind of way right now hence the distance but at least we're speaking. We could be giving each other the silent treatment. Well more him giving me the silent treatment. But it's not like neither one of us hasn't been there before. Let's just hope this all blows over by the weekend. I miss him. And I'm sure he misses me too. I don't have time for this bullshit.

And to top it all off I've had the week from hell. Monday I started my week off wrong late to work. Something weird was going on with my exit off the highway. Tuesday my cycle came early like a bitch. This morning I was late to work AGAIN because I got a flat tire. That fucker is upset with me. Oh yeah let's not forget that something else was wrong with the car and I had to spend money to get it fixed over the weekend. I've been through hell with DELL trying to get this laptop finally back in working order. I should have the last piece of it in the mail in the next few days hopefully. Goodness! Still haven't found another part time job. Money is running through my fingers like water. It seems like Everytime I turn around it's something else.

Winter White and then some....

I've done a lot of shopping lately. Especially around the holidays. Check out some of my purchases...


I got a great deal on this coat from Victoria's Secret:




It was only $29.99. I always wanted a winter white coat. I haven't had one since I was in middle school. Can't wait for it to come so I can try it on.

Some other recent purchases:

GUESS by Marciano - Carrie in Dark Brown Leather



I really like these shoes. I didn't have just a plain brown pair of pumps. Love the 4" heel.

Forever 21 - Azul Rose Cropped Cardigan



For some reason this sweater gives me a granny/little old lady vibe but I like it.

Forever 21 - Strapless Trouser Jumpsuit



Love this jumpsuit! Just have to find somewhere to wear it.

I'll be back with more.

FINALLY!!

I finally got my regular computer back in business. I used my old one for limited net surfing because it was just so slow. Anything else I did online at work and I certainly didn't want to blog at work. They might have a keylogger or something. I've been writing in a paper journal lately so maybe i will retype and enter those entries when I have some time. Glad to be back....

The Year in Review - 2008 Edition

In all honesty, looking back on 2008 it wasn't half bad. 2007 was a beast with all it's ups and downs so that would make 2008 a bit of a breather. I found a steady full time job that I actually like. The job actually fell into my lap -- and I've been there for over 10 months now. No funny business or crazy rules this time. It's cool and laid back. It's close to home. I feel like I was put there for a reason.

My part time job took off this year. I started out working one night at the bar and ended up parlaying that into being a regular bartender 4 nights a week. The money was FABULOUS. Who would have ever thought that I would make almost double the money working part time than I do at my full time job? That job was another one that fell into my lap. You couldn't have planned the chain of events that led to that job if you tried.

I was sad when it came to an end with the bar closing but I met a lot of interesting people while working there. I formed relationships with the regular customers and we all grew to love each other like family. That place became a second home to me. I miss working there. That job allowed me to finally live comfortably - probably above comfortably for the first time in my working adult life. I wanted for nothing, It felt good knowing that I was able to totally support myself and should I ever need to get back out there and make some quick money, I'm definitely capable of doing it. I love bartending. It taught me to hustle and stay on the grind and I'm proud of myself for hanging in there. It wasn't an easy job. I worked hard for every tip I earned. Who would have ever thought Ms. Priss would be such a hard worker? Not even me hun.

Working at the bar also brought someone wonderful into my life. I know I've alluded to this before but I wonder if I was put there to meet him. Who would have ever thought that 2008 would have brought true love into my life? I wasn't looking or even thinking about dating. I met him the first night I worked, which was technically in 2007 but I brushed him off for a while. To be honest, I wasn't in the right frame of mind when we met. I wasn't ready to accept him and everything he had to offer into my life at that time. I was trying to get my life together. That was my main focus at the time.

He tried again once I had settled down and got my life back on track and we've been pretty much inseparable ever since. Don't get me wrong we've had our ups and our downs but things have mostly been on the up side. I've never been in a relationship with somebody that seems so effortless. When we're together it's like we're in sync. We get along so great. And that says a lot knowing how difficult I am. Even in all this time we've never had any MAJOR problems or arguments. I had to get on him about that crawling under a rock thing everytime he has to deal with a problem but that was pretty much it.

I will be honest and say that he definitely isn't the package I was expecting but it doesn't matter at this point. I'm happy overall. This time has definitely flown by. This is the longest I've ever continously dated one person in my dating life. I'm proud of myself for reaching that milestone and certainly without drama.

On another front, I always thought that B and I would end up together once his ex got out of the picture. Boy was I wrong. I always thought we were a perfect match but maybe not. Maybe it's not time? Who knows what the future holds? But I'm finally past dwelling on it. He certainly wasn't helping either. We did grow a lot closer during that time period and I'm greatful for that. He is still one of the best friends I've ever had. And probably always will be. He's one of the few friends that I go all the way back to childhood with. I know he's there for me if I need him and vice versa. Gotta love him. I still can't believe I poured my heart out to him behind this new chick only for it to turn out that I had my panties in a bunch for nothing. You live and you learn. I'm sure that has made our friendship stronger too.

I've grown closer to my family this year. I don't get as nauseous when it comes to family gatherings. I do wish we associated more with some of our extended family though. Holidays can get boring when it's just the 4 (or 5) of us. I'm thankful to have them in my life.

Looking back at 2008, I honestly feel like I accomplished something this year. That's a 100% more than I could say for 2007. I'm not where I want to be goal wise just yet but I have made some progress. I'm just going to continue to take things one day at a time. I definitely don't feel as lost anymore. I still don't know what my purpose is but I get the feeling I'm headed in the right direction.

I pray that 2009 will be a properous year for all of us and I look forward to the changes it brings. I brought in the New Year working (and getting money) so let's hope that sets the tone for the 09.