Recent Additions...

I bought these today. I also bought a few other pairs. I'll post pictures later.



Nine West Heech

Letting Go...

And another one bites the dust. All because I spoke my mind and told the truth. The past few years my gfs have just been dropping like flies. I'm just tired of BS and I'm finding that as time goes on we have less in common. Just because we were in the same place a few years ago doesn't necessarily mean that we're in the same place now. I still love them all dearly but I just can't be bothered anymore. I'm trying to get my priorities in line and I already have enough of my own issues to be worried about.

Mmm.... So surreal...

That's how I'm feeling right now. I spent most of the day with my sweetie yesterday. He keeps trying to get me to meet his fam though. I'm not even sure how I feel about that. We went past his moms/grandmoms house yesterday but I stayed in the car while he went in for a few minutes. Whew I got out of that one. They were in the process of moving anyway so I doubt it would be a good time. I wouldn't want people to visit my house while it was half boxed up. We did go to his cousin's house for a while though. They were watching tv, playing cards, eating, etc. We stayed for a little while. Introductions are always so awkward but I was alright. Better than I thought I would be with it. I wonder if they think I'm snotty?

I'm actually off this weekend and don't know what to do with myself. He has to work. :( I've been up since 4:30 but I'm still laying in my bed as I'm typing this. How did I ever live without wireless service on my laptop in this house? Didn't know what I was missing... I'm going to the wine festival with my bestie today. I can't wait!

Feeling Better...

I had a great weekend. I made a ton of $$$, spent some time with my sweetie and did some shopping. Looking forward to a great week...

I spoke to my high school sweetheart recently. It's been over a year and a half since we completely severed ties and I'm confident in saying that I'm finally over him. Sure he took me through some ups and serious downs but looking back now I don't regret it. I remember at a point feeling like part of me wanted him to be happy but as long as it wasn't with her. Or anybody else that I didn't like. Ideally I still wouldn't want it to be with her even though it seems like the logical thing to do at this point. But if it came to that, I'd understand. I do want him to be happy and be with someone who can give him everything he needs. Overall, he was good to me so I know he's capable of giving that to someone he deems deserving.

We both made a lot of mistakes and I learned a lot from that whole experience. But on the flip side, I don't think he's completely over me. And he probably never will be. I get the slightest inkling that he still hopes that one day we'll get back together. But not in this lifetime. I'm not going to be able to do it. Nor would I want to. I'll always love him and hold a special place for him in my heart but he and I could never be. Now that we're adults were in two different times and two different spaces with two different sets of priorities and goals. It just wouldn't work. I could be wrong in assuming that but I don't think so. Why else would he be trying to keep tabs on me or dropping hints? Guess I'll never truly know the answer to that question...

Currently Listening: LTD - Love Ballad

On a random note...

Have you ever heard a song and felt like it just took you back in time? Or more specifically back to a particular moment in time? It usually happens to me with older songs. Not so much with the current music (probably because most of it is crap anyway). But it's just amazing to me how certain songs can make me feel certain ways about certain things first of all. And then when I hear them again years later I relive that feeling all over again. Especially when it's one of my favorite songs. Memories can be so sweet...

Having an I hate my life day...

Mainly because the two year anniversary of my graduation is coming up and I feel like I haven't accomplished anything since. I have nothing to show for those 2 years and it's extremely frustrating. I miss school... I miss books... I miss intelligent conversation... I miss debating... I feel like all I do is eat, sleep and work with no time to do anything interesting in between. Then I wake up the next day and do it all over again. Working full time is still taking some time to adjust. My life is certainly not where I thought it would be right now. I'm just going to have to bust my ass this summer to pay these few bills off and start '09 on a fresh note. I hope and pray that I do....

101 Goals in 1001 Days...

I ran across this on one of the message boards I frequent a while back and I thought it was something fun to do. It took me a while to generate my list but it's finally complete and I've started on it. I've even accomplished a few goals in the meantime. Check out the official website here: http://www.101goalsin1001days.com

Song of the Week - Ne-yo - Closer

I really love this song. I really love his lyrics and style. I'm so excited that Ne-yo is bringing us new music next month. Even though I was a little disappointed with the Because of You album (I didn't like it as much as In My Own Words) but I'm still excited to hear the new material. After I first listen to a new album, I feel anxious to hear mroe new material. Ne-yo's songs always hit a chord with me. It's like I want to listen to them on repeat all day long. I felt that way when I first heard Mario's - Let Me Love You, only at the time I didn't know Ne-Yo wrote it. Then when I heard Stay I felt the same way. Stay reminded me of how I felt about Let Me Love You and once I heard Ne-yo say he wrote it in a radio interview I was pretty much sold on him after that...

Growth and Development

I've been on the fence the last few weeks about some friend issues. I've been out of college almost 2 years now and my girlfriend circle has slowly diminished for various reasons. One being that I felt the relationships were not genuine. I got tired of hanging onto one sided relationships and phony people. Sure sometimes I miss them, but I'm alright. I just feel like I'm outgrowing my friends. The goals, interests and common ground we once shared are no more and I'm not totally sure why. You would think that with all of us graduating and entering the world of working adults that we'd have the same priorities but I guess not. Some people are more interested in partying than their newfound obligations as a working adult. I don't quite understand it but to each his own. Has anybody else outgrown a friend?

Song of the Week: Alicia Keys - Teenage Love Affair

I love this song! Oh boy I remember that feeling! lol It's funny because the first time I listened to the album I was kind of ehhh about it. After revisiting it a few times it grew on me. The School Daze theme in the video is cute too.