Feeling Better...

I had a great weekend. I made a ton of $$$, spent some time with my sweetie and did some shopping. Looking forward to a great week...

I spoke to my high school sweetheart recently. It's been over a year and a half since we completely severed ties and I'm confident in saying that I'm finally over him. Sure he took me through some ups and serious downs but looking back now I don't regret it. I remember at a point feeling like part of me wanted him to be happy but as long as it wasn't with her. Or anybody else that I didn't like. Ideally I still wouldn't want it to be with her even though it seems like the logical thing to do at this point. But if it came to that, I'd understand. I do want him to be happy and be with someone who can give him everything he needs. Overall, he was good to me so I know he's capable of giving that to someone he deems deserving.

We both made a lot of mistakes and I learned a lot from that whole experience. But on the flip side, I don't think he's completely over me. And he probably never will be. I get the slightest inkling that he still hopes that one day we'll get back together. But not in this lifetime. I'm not going to be able to do it. Nor would I want to. I'll always love him and hold a special place for him in my heart but he and I could never be. Now that we're adults were in two different times and two different spaces with two different sets of priorities and goals. It just wouldn't work. I could be wrong in assuming that but I don't think so. Why else would he be trying to keep tabs on me or dropping hints? Guess I'll never truly know the answer to that question...

Currently Listening: LTD - Love Ballad